Financial Crisis

What i HATE the most happened again!!! [YY: Sorry that i have to break my promise and use the word]... My D ask money from me again yesterday, usually he will only ask me during weekends. He ask me on weekdays, that means he really have no money at all... I guess not more than 50 bucks in his wallet... I duwan to criticize him... I trying my very best not to blame him and call him as a useless guy in this family, but he is really that kind of people. He is lazy. He thinks that that money will go to him without putting any effort. I asked him: 'Y dun u find a job?' he answered me with: 'I think the opportunity haven come yet. I can feel that the opportunity is coming.' Wth is this kind of answer?!!! He keep on finding excuse for his laziness... Everytime when he have no money, he will just open his hands and ask from others.. He dun feel the shame.. Especially when he ask money from me and my M. Sometimes my M have no money, so she cant give him. Then he will start blaming her not taking care of me n my brother, put all the blames on my M. Haiz... My coming weekends will be another worst weekends in my life. Now im worrying whether i can come bak to hostel on sunday... If he suddenly in a hot-tempered manner, I may not have the chance t come back to Sunway College. I wanna cry out! I wanna some1 to comfort me now. I guess my brother have no time to read my blog cz tmr he have physics test. I duwan to bother him. There has been a long time that i din tell anyone about my family prob. Last few months, i still tell my brother - YY about my recent family condition. I duno since when i stop telling him about all my family prob although is still happening. Lol... Bing Soon, your personality really suits on me, put everything in the heart and not telling out cz telling out doesn't helps, it will only turn all my friends around me into sad mood. 1 thing we r different which is I express my feelings on blog, which doesn't bother yr friends and u can tell out.. btw it doesn't work much on releasing stress and pain in the heart. Shoulder and comfort from my brother or friends is still the best. I really wanna cry...

Angel [ 9.57pm 12th August 2010 ]