Hooray!! I just finished exam. Tot will go out with classmates but it dosen go that way. Frauline and KC they all went to The Curve. I din join them but blogging here. Lol they din invite I also duwan to be so 'thick face'. Hope they will enjoy their night. I finished my last paper T5- Managing People and System. I have no prob with the paper but in real life I guess Im facing prob in managing people? This is kinda sad. I still feel distance between me n my classmates. Mayb cz of I din really join them in outings and occasion? I think 1 of the reason shld be my emotional feeling. Really gotta find out whats the prob le. Sad n sorrow is surrounding me. They din leave me since last friday, after the last outing with my Ausmat friends. Continuous 7 days of crying due to too much of things which changing my life. (I hope 2day wont be the 8th day?) My life is totally changed in these 7 days. Oh no.. Im having tears now.. Dun come out from my eyes pls.. ok ok.. Lets talk abt how is my life now. Life without a brother anymore, without true happiness, with ignorance by frens, with tears. I describe myself as an orphan now. I duno what kind of life is this but I know this isn't the life I want. What did I did wrongly until I deserve a life like this? Is it really my fault? I give up.. I started give up on many things. I dun hope anymore. I give up on love, give up on relationship. Im tired of all this. I shld just let go of all this,I guess my life will be easier after that? Ya.. I shld just let it be.. If there is no hope, there will be no disappointment. If there is no disappointment, there will be no sad n sorrow. Life can be easier? I just want a happy life. Just Happy.... When will I get it?
Angel [ 6.20pm 10th December 2010]
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