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I dunno what is gonna happen for the following days. I am quiet worry now. My D is asking money from my M again, but my M is not going to fulfill his wish because he has never try hard to earn money himself. Those who know about my family problem, i think u all know what am i talking about. When my D wanna ask money from my M, he always ask me to be the middle person. I did what my D asked and next what appears in my vision is a face full of unwillingness and i can hear a lot of scolding words from that moment on. Sometimes,i just hope i can run away from my D and M. Both of them are so annoying. As a daughter, i know i shouldn't say this but they are making me suffer all the time. I don't have a happy life like normal children have. My life is full of noises of argument, silence in the entire house, chasing after my M and suffer because of my D commit suicide. All these above is getting my nerve break. How can a small kid withstand all these?! (exhales, exhales, exhales) People around me keep on saying that everything can be solve. Then tell me! How can my problem be solved? Running away from this dark house? Commit suicide? Or kill my D? There is no way to solve this problem. I am trying to get myself into the hostel in Sunway University College but i don't think my D will allow. He will do anything just to stop from staying in the hostel. Seriously hope God will help me. I'm gonna stop here just to have a rest in mentally. Very tired...