No longer the Original ME!

2day someone told me that he heard something from my ex-band seniors about my attitude in band. As I thought, is all bad comments. YY which always complain, blame, hot-tempered, wants everyone to obey her(not very serious), always hurt others feeling(not purposely).......This is the original me. He told me I should do something to change myself. Ya, I agreed. I was a very bad girl in band from the view of attitude. Now in ttc, those attitude came back for me. [Crying] He told me to learn from BS. BS ask me not to learn from BS(himself). But he(the person) advised me to learn those attitude from him. OK, lets describe BS. He is a lame guy, funny, always emo, no complains, patient and don't really show his true face. To me, this is BS. I duno whether I describe him correctly or not but from my point of view, he is like that. Last sunday, 1 of my student said me and BS are alike in some ways. LOL exactly.. Me and BS are alike, should say that Im the noisy BS and he is the quiet YY. BS and my kor(YY), they are alike too. They are silent, seldom complain, patient and alot more. They don't express their feelings made me hard to understand what they thinking. Sometimes, when YY or BS tell me their hard feelings, I feel happy. The feeling is like OMG, they told me their feelings, their hard feelings. Is good to be a person like them but your frens wont know what are you thinking. I hope to be this kind of person also at 1st but it wasn't successful. The original me is stronger than the transform one. This time there will be no unsuccessful. Must success. Because this is what my frens around me hope for. The transformed me. A YY which dun have complain anymore, not hot-tempered anymore... Wish me good luck and good bye to the original YY..

Angel [3.53am 27th May 2010]