Feelings

Seriously, i really wanna leave my M and D. They are really causing me a lot of problem. Because of them, I am confused, angry and hot-tempered. To be true, sometimes i really duno what they want. They just made me so hard to survive. They made my life full of lies, tears, and even suffer. Is there any parents in this world will teach their children to lie to the elders? Ya, there is, my parents. How terrible?! I think i had told u guys that I am entering the hostel in Sunway University College. The plan wasn't going smooth. I think i dun even have the chance to make decision about where I wanna stay during my college life. Tired, very tired. Sometimes, I just hope that I have a boyfriend that can always stay beside me, cheer me up and always there when I need him. Tired.. Tired.. Tired.. Very tired..

Angel ( 5.43pm 6th march 2010)

BS

I treasure my relationship between me and bs. He is like a brother to me. He helped me a lot in these few years of my life. Family problem, relationship problem, matters and others, he knows quiet a lot about me, but usually we just cant talk in a peace situation. This problem is just always in my mind. I really hate when both of us go through a serious argument, not that kind of joking type. Both of us just cant talk or chat in peace. I am that kind of person who always gotta have someone to rely on at anywhere, anytime. So in ttc, bs is the 1 i rely on because he is the 1 who help me the most in ttc. Most of the time, we just cant talk properly. My point is.... CAN WE JUST TALK LIKE NORMAL? I really need him a lot as a person to rely on and also as a brother but he dun understand what i want. Maybe i just asked too much from him. Kk.. thats all i wanna say. Just wanna release anger.

Angel (2.06pm 4th march 2010)

Distance

Last time, i was saying that my life is meaningless because i am jobless. Now i am busy and i feel distance between friends, especially with my kor. It's actually quiet sad =( I feel like long time i din talk to him le. Just few days and i started feeling that there is a big distance between us =( Not only my kor and also stephanie and rou xin. These few days rou xin is having some problem but i cant even help her anything =( What a friend am I ?!! To kor, I miss kor alot. My brain is blanked now.. I duno wad to write le.. Sudden lonely feeling =( Kk.. I think my brain is really blank le so i gotta stop here le.. Hope everyone have a great day =)

Angel (4.43pm 3th march 2010)

4 classes per week

From this month onwards, i will be teaching 4 classes per week. Although this is a bit tough and tiring for me, but i still gotta do it. All is because of my home financial problem. Now my eyes is almost close. I have to finish a set of notes b4 10th of march. So this week is like a totally busy week. I have no idea how busy it will be. As like kai boon said, even eating has been a very wasting energy JOB!! Imagine.. I am really lack of energy. Anytime and anywhere i can just sleep except when im running and jumping around for those printing seminar notes. After all, im glad that everyone is caring for me. Finally i caught some people's attention. Ok, is time to stop here. Hope everyone have a great day. =)

Angel (6.37pm, 1st march 2010)

Rest time =)

Finally 27th and 28th seminar done! =) 2days i din sleep le. Very tired and now is time to rest but not the time to relax because the coming 6th and 7th of march are also SEMINAR!! Nothing much to say but just hope everything will go smooth. Not planning to write more now coz i very tired le, totally exhausted! Kk.. My words until here. Time to sleep =) NItez.

Angel (6.03pm, 28th Feb 2010)

Fall from the table of 1 metre high

I was helping ttc printing those notes for seminar which will be held on 27th of Feb 2010 (tomorrow). There were 14 types of notes. Every notes need almost 50 copy n every notes were at least 20 pages. Conclusion there were at least 14ooo pages gonna print or maybe the double of that coz not every notes have only 20 pages. Like account there were 40 pages. Ok... But the main point is when i wanna record those notes that needed to be print on the white board, i fall from the table. The white board were placed on the wall and the top of the white board almost reach the celling. So, i stood on the table and record those thing. When i wanna come down from the table, i stepped on a chair but accidentally i fall from the table. Reason is THE CHAIR =) An unbalanced chair. So unfortunate. No blood came out but my whole body experience pain.Almost cried but i stopped the tears. Everyone were worrying about me coz they heard the big sound impact. What i tell is really pain and i almost into an unconscious condition. After 2 hours i still fell pain... and tired. I think i have no chance to sleep later and this will be the 1st time i working 24 hours non-stop. =) At last, hope our seminar will go smooth and full of joy.=) May God bless all of us =)

Meaningful n Meaningless

After 2 months from the end of SPM, yesterday only i feel that i did something meaningful maybe it's because of I'm busy whole day long. Everyday early morning i have to wake up coz of transport problem. If i don't follow my brother (the real 1) lol, then that whole day long i gotta stay at home le. So, i have no choice. I have to open my eyes early morning but after i sat in my dad's car, my eyes will automatically close. =) Every morning i will be on9 in TTC and doing many things. I seldom outgoing with friends coz of transport problem n also D's problem. Haiz... I am the 1 who always cause problem to my friends. So bad of me. N i always feel guilty. Ok, I am a bit out of topic. I feel that my life was meaningless coz i have nothing to do. What i did last time was lepak around, walk here n walk there, doing nothing. I seriously hope my college class can start soon. At least that time i will be busy around. Ok is time to busy with 11 printers in ttc =). Gotta fixed all of them =) BB

Coming Soon

I dunno what is gonna happen for the following days. I am quiet worry now. My D is asking money from my M again, but my M is not going to fulfill his wish because he has never try hard to earn money himself. Those who know about my family problem, i think u all know what am i talking about. When my D wanna ask money from my M, he always ask me to be the middle person. I did what my D asked and next what appears in my vision is a face full of unwillingness and i can hear a lot of scolding words from that moment on. Sometimes,i just hope i can run away from my D and M. Both of them are so annoying. As a daughter, i know i shouldn't say this but they are making me suffer all the time. I don't have a happy life like normal children have. My life is full of noises of argument, silence in the entire house, chasing after my M and suffer because of my D commit suicide. All these above is getting my nerve break. How can a small kid withstand all these?! (exhales, exhales, exhales) People around me keep on saying that everything can be solve. Then tell me! How can my problem be solved? Running away from this dark house? Commit suicide? Or kill my D? There is no way to solve this problem. I am trying to get myself into the hostel in Sunway University College but i don't think my D will allow. He will do anything just to stop from staying in the hostel. Seriously hope God will help me. I'm gonna stop here just to have a rest in mentally. Very tired...

Computer NOOB

Haiz.. I got my Mac but everything need to be update. So is a long way to go for my Mac to become an 'UPDATED' one. Moreover, I know nothing about laptop's software thing, and this is apple! Is totally a different thing compared to those i used. I am getting crazy coz of this Mac and now I really hope there will be a Mac technician sitting beside me helping me solve all my problem here. HELP!!!

Apple =)

Hooray =) I just got my personal apple laptop =) It's from my uncle who stay in singapore.. Thanks to him and now i have a laptop =) Love him so much =) By the way, apple laptop is not easy to use.. Everything were totally different. I gotta spend some time on this laptop. Hehe.. I am very happy now.. Hope every of you who read this post is also as happy as me =)