No longer the Original ME!

2day someone told me that he heard something from my ex-band seniors about my attitude in band. As I thought, is all bad comments. YY which always complain, blame, hot-tempered, wants everyone to obey her(not very serious), always hurt others feeling(not purposely).......This is the original me. He told me I should do something to change myself. Ya, I agreed. I was a very bad girl in band from the view of attitude. Now in ttc, those attitude came back for me. [Crying] He told me to learn from BS. BS ask me not to learn from BS(himself). But he(the person) advised me to learn those attitude from him. OK, lets describe BS. He is a lame guy, funny, always emo, no complains, patient and don't really show his true face. To me, this is BS. I duno whether I describe him correctly or not but from my point of view, he is like that. Last sunday, 1 of my student said me and BS are alike in some ways. LOL exactly.. Me and BS are alike, should say that Im the noisy BS and he is the quiet YY. BS and my kor(YY), they are alike too. They are silent, seldom complain, patient and alot more. They don't express their feelings made me hard to understand what they thinking. Sometimes, when YY or BS tell me their hard feelings, I feel happy. The feeling is like OMG, they told me their feelings, their hard feelings. Is good to be a person like them but your frens wont know what are you thinking. I hope to be this kind of person also at 1st but it wasn't successful. The original me is stronger than the transform one. This time there will be no unsuccessful. Must success. Because this is what my frens around me hope for. The transformed me. A YY which dun have complain anymore, not hot-tempered anymore... Wish me good luck and good bye to the original YY..

Angel [3.53am 27th May 2010]

Michael Jackson's Ghost

I slept at 4 o'clock this morning thanks to Dexter Lee Pui Yit. He recommend me to watch the video of Michael Jackson's Ghost 2 days ago. This morning( is 12 o'clock in the morning) when I reached my hostel, I just remember that he asked me to watch it. I should say 1st, those who know me well should have know that i'm not that kind of people who scared of ghost. So I don't mind to watching the ghost video although is midnight. BUT BUT the person who created the video is technically pro. He made the video have very good sound effect and the sudden pop out image of scary michael jackson. I was shocked and immediately I throw my headphone away. My whole body is shaking and my brain was blank at that time. That scary face bothered me the whole morning until 4 only i sleep. OMG!!!!

Angel [11.23am 22nd May 2010]

Feel like Dying..

My D wanna play texas poker using my netbook.. At last, he lost 1 match and he blame all the fault on me... GREAT!!! Now im blogging in my room and I dun even have the chance to voice out or cry out to express my words n feelings. GREAT!!! I really feel like jump out of the window from my room here.. END!

Angel [12.22am 16th May 2010]

Hate Myself!!!

2day is 12th May 2010, I did a very wrong thing in that minute time. I really fell regret about it. I hate myself for not controlling my emotions well. Lets talk about what happened. hp computer store told me that they will send my netbook to my M's place in between 5 to 7pm. Therefore, after my ice-skating with classmate, asked my M to fetch me from sunway to her place n wait at home for the arrival of my laptop. We did called the hp store coz we were rushing out of time. 7pm i have class at ttc, so is kinda rush. We waited until 7pm and they still haven come. I dislike their service coz they don't pick up my call. Not even once. That time, my mood went down to the deep end. My M ask me to go along with her and ask me not to wait anymore. I just told her I would like to wait for another 15 minutes in a very bad manners. Is not scolding or shouting to her. Is just bad manners in soft sound but nothing wrong with the words in the sentences. I regret after I said the sentences. I cried whole way long in the journey to ttc. I would not like to let her know. I cried secretly. At last, when i reached ttc, immediately I ran into B1(is a blank classroom) and cried out very loudly. I just feel very sorry to my M. M, really really sorry to you, thousand apologize from me to you. Hope you will forgive me. Sorry... hate Myself!!!

Angel [10.30pm 12th May 2010]

Pool Side Party - FUN!! =)

8th May 2010 is Mao's birthday party.. That morning is my previous high school sports day. I promised my juniors that i will attend the event but sadly i have to put my priority on my CAT exams. So sry to them.. by the way, back to the topic - Pool Side Party =) I love this kind of party coz I can play water.. haha.. That night, around 20 people joined this happy event. We had bbq food and domino pizza.. I love the cheessy one. Yewho, kok sheng and a few guys helped start up the fire. When fire successfully started up, guys start jumping into the pool =0 a few minutes later, more and more guys started targeting, chasing and throwing people into the pool. That was kinda fun. At the same time, me and kai boon was having a heart-to-heart talk. Our mood is going down and down throughout the conversation. That time I was thinking: I just can't let my beloved friend down. I gotta do something to help him stop thinking of those things that bothering him and made him sad. So.... hehe... with liang jie's help and every guys in the pool, kai boon is being threw into the pool. He did tried to stay away from those guys but at last they still got him.. haha.. Next, Stephanie told me that she wanna go into the pool. I accompany her. When I walked near the pool, suddenly those guys start target me and kok sheng was chasing me all the way from one end to the same end. Lol.. when im still running, Aik Buan appeared in front of me. I accidentally fall down and got some injures.. but still i can't change my fate.. lol im being threw into the pool 2.. haha kinda fun and enjoyed. 1st experience being throw into the pool =) and Im the only girl being threw into the pool...lol... when 11 o'clock, the light were off and that means that we have nothing more that we can do. So everyone start packing things and prepared to leave. N this is end of the party =) hehe.... =)

Angel [10.31am 10th May 2010]

Burden

Is me.. Always causes problem to others, to my friends, that was last time. Now, I'm a burden to my ttc seniors. Sorry Mr.Koh. Sorry for causing so much inconvenience to you and sorry that maybe these kind of inconvenience is going to last as long as I'm still in ttc.. Very sorry. To my friends, 'burden' matter isn't that serious now. I don't want to be a burden to others but sometimes I have no choice. I'm a person which is living in my own world when i was still a small girl. I don't really connected to others so I have no knowledge of how to take public transport, not only this, many others uncountable things that I should know at this age but I still dunno. When things happen, everybody know how to solve their own question coz they have the knowledge but what I can do is just asking help from my friends. I really hate myself often. Really... More hate especially when I know my friends don't like me or hate me. Ok. End of this topic. Time for work.

Angel [12.27pm 16th April 2010]

Apple =(

For some frens around me, know what is the title means.. Yes! is my Apple ibook, which is also known as mac. It's spoiled... Sad =( Sad in that is my 1st laptop, sad in i don't have laptop anymore, sad in i gotta have every night as boring night without it. In my hostel, there is no television, no radio, there is no thing that can entertain u.. So if u don't have your own entertainment, then u will be having boring life in there. Conclusion: I am the unlucky 1.. Don't have laptop.. N i don't study... For all my frens, u all are quiet clear about that.. So every evening i will be in ttc, using computer there until time approach, the time that i really have to rush back to hostel then only i go back. So, yesterday, i was in college at night coz my class was from 3 to 5pm.. After my class i just went library with my frens and flip through my book, not more than 15 mins, i just closed my book n go to the computer area.. Lol.. until 8.45pm, sad =( library is going to close. I gotta leave, so i went back to hostel, take bath. After that i just lie on my bed and that time is just 9.30pm and i fall asleep. Whan i reopen my eyes, is 10am already. Lol.. u know y? Coz i didn't sleep last night. I watch tv until 5am then start prepare for journey to school le.. Lol.. like piggy rite? but the real piggy isn't me, is my kor... lol which is Tan Yang Yenn.. Lol hope he won't read my blog often. If not he is gonna kill me... k la=) i stop here.. Nitez everyone =)

Angel [9.19pm 13th April 2010]

College Life =)

Long time i din update my blog le. This few weeks addicted to novels so forgot to update la. Sorry ya to all my beloved frens. I entered the hostel on the 21st of march, met new roommate like Gilian , Jane and more frens =) I love making new frens. Hehe... Happy =) 22nd was my orientation. Damn boring man!! Luckily meet catholic frens studying in the same course and same class, can chit-chat a bit, not so boring. The most interesting part and also known as the most funny part in the whole orientation was me and kar chun were 'fishing' in the hall when the boss of Sunway-TES, Mr.Teo Ee Sing was giving speech. He is a very cute guy but the way he talked was too slow and at last both of us almost fall asleep. lol =) In sunway, can meet many CHS students, especially SF ppl. I saw Pei Yoong, Chong Yaw, Chun Kiat is studying the same course with me which is CAT. Then Bryan Chung and Kien Ping are in the same class with me. =) Nice to have them as my classmate =) 2day is my 1st class in sunway. I met a new fren named siang feng, he is from penang =) A nice guy look like Liew Kar Jun which was my previous classmate. My lecturer very funny, keep on saying the paper he teaching is the most important paper compared to others. Btw is just like a joke la, nth much =) These 3 days are sunway de club and society open day. N my Kor.... zzzzz.... feel like whack him, he kept on saying that he wanna start a new club name 'Anti-Dog" society. How bad is he. Zzzz.. Always bully me de. Just playing fool la. lol=) Me, Kor(YY) and Rou Xin are planning to play sports tmr, is either basketball or table tennis =) Hope plans can run smoothly =) May God Bless all of us and all my Frens. =).......... To Be Continue.........

Thought

Thought is a very scary thing. It can cause misunderstanding between humans. I have experienced it many times. This time it caused misunderstanding between my M and me. My M THOUGHT that i hate her. I hate that when she say that i hate her but i am not. I hate people misunderstand me cz i am always being misunderstood by ALL my family members. 1 of the reason of causing all these misunderstanding is from me, which is I dun really know how to express my feelings and what I wanna say. My vocabulary and grammar in every language are so limited and weak. Haiz.. Don't feel like writing le.. Bb

Angel (2.49pm 12 march 2010)

Feelings

Seriously, i really wanna leave my M and D. They are really causing me a lot of problem. Because of them, I am confused, angry and hot-tempered. To be true, sometimes i really duno what they want. They just made me so hard to survive. They made my life full of lies, tears, and even suffer. Is there any parents in this world will teach their children to lie to the elders? Ya, there is, my parents. How terrible?! I think i had told u guys that I am entering the hostel in Sunway University College. The plan wasn't going smooth. I think i dun even have the chance to make decision about where I wanna stay during my college life. Tired, very tired. Sometimes, I just hope that I have a boyfriend that can always stay beside me, cheer me up and always there when I need him. Tired.. Tired.. Tired.. Very tired..

Angel ( 5.43pm 6th march 2010)